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Salut. The name is Ivy. She gets a year older every 18th November. Butterflies aren't really on her List of Nice Things. She loves her BFFs and TENNIS :D. Okay, and she doesn't know what else to say so she will stop here.

Saturday, March 29, 2008

even as im sitting in front of my APPLE, i know i wun ever type out a blogpost. why? im lazy to, and i REALLY wanna blog, just tat i lose the mood all of a sudden. what's the point huh.



college life i really busy, and kinda hectic. for a LAZY person like me, that is. ohoh. and i just despise that CT of mine. all she does is talk and talk and talk crap. yes, BUTTYliwanyu, u should know. ohoh, speaking of whom,i was supposed to mee with huangwanqing the STONE again, but the i also lost the mood, and since they've eaten already i might as well stay at home and slack and mug and cook my own lunch. YES. sounds pretty huh: "COOK MY OWN LUNCH" but actually in IVYTAN's terms, COOK MY OWN LUNCH= #1. Boil water; #2. put in instant noodles; #3. spill in watever seasonings and an egg. THAT, is pretty much it. oh god. i miss wanyu and wanqing and everyone else, though i do get to see wangxua and huiwen and angkukueh almost everyday in school at least once if im really lucky; our timetables clash kinda like crazy.



oh. speaking of whom, wangxua and huiwen got in the school tennis girls team le. and i still have to undergo some second round of audition. yes, i know i oughta be thankful. AT LEAST i still have a chance. but then again, thinking of how fast they;ve gotten in, and how much competition i have to face for the last 2 spots or so in the team kinda turns my stomach a bit. ever since i received the call on my cell on the way home in my father's van on that RAINY friday, my mood totally changed. my mom even came in to ask why i look so defeated. oh gosh. i must admit im VERY defeated already. jesus. i really oughta cheer up, mop up all my tutorials, revise for those bloody tests, (specifically CHEM; gasps at redox*), and really work hard to get in the team. finally i found something im really keen on, and i tink its about time i reall put in some effort. maybe its too late to say, but if anything, there is always CHOIR for me. (oh great great LORD. im really trying my best not to think in that direction. currently i heard choir has only got like, 11 ppl in all? HIGHLY doubt there will even be a chance for us to enter SYF. i mean, yes, DUN LET THE NUMBERS DEFINE U, but still, 11 is kinda SAD..)



oh yeh. stayed back in school on friday to finish up my GP assignment, and since i had nothin to do from 3 to 4 when jaclyn had PC (we were intending to play tennis after school), i decided to stay back in school to finish up my GP, which is like, overdue by at east an hour. seriously, i wouldnt fanccy waking up BRIGHT and EARLY to return to JJC tor eturn my script. haha NOPE. fat hope. NO. IVAN, is really lazy sometimes.



oh god. im turning into ONE FAT NOOBY NERD.

#1: I KEEP SNACKING!!! EVEN WHEN STUDYING!!! (that is, IF, i even studied at all)

#2: I MISS MY RUFF FRENS!!! WHICH, unfortunately had all been delteted by the ROSEteam, after fixing the breakdown over the weekend or sumthing. KILLER to my heart man. my buddies..]]:

*met ele online today. retarded yeh? hahaha we were like OMG. U FINALLY ONLINED~~ HAVEN SEEN U IN AGES and all those crap. after 5 mins of those kinda 'MISS U, U RETARDED NOOB!' kinda shit we went back to insulting each other and crapping along. omg waste of my time HAHAHA.*

#3: noob ar...why ar. OH. i forgot. HOHOHOHO. IMA NOOB cuz i haven even gotten the $$20 from chrisliew who passed the money to wanqing who i am supposed to meet along with liwanyu for lunch today at JP, then mug. oh. which brings me to the next point.

#4: im TURNING IN TO A NERD. ok, or sorta like tat. other tha being online for chatting and iTunes, im like. study study study. i even didnt feel like going out with wanyu except for the fact to look at a new pair of track shoes (at this point in time, im sadded by the fact tat i have to go throw rubbish and change com so im back to this flat, white but lifeless APPLE keyboard of mine.) and then (i have now completely lost all mood after msning with a few goofballs and kukus hahahaha)...OH YEH. so i just didnt feel like going out le lohs, since going out need to spend money on food and now got inflation and everything...-.-

and yeh, since i started i dun tink i wnana stop liao. even though i lost all mood. hahaha.

HM. HOW HOW HOW. finally im posting somthing bout the OG14 i had been and will always be in. i miss them. i miss them ALL. i know how OGs tend to fade off gardually from PAE, but it never occured to me how much difference it would make. ,y OG in aj wasnt tat much enthu and all, probably cuz the camp wasnt as much fun and required as much bonding. aj camp was more like leadership camp, all bout teamwrk. well, challenging in a sense, but predictable in the same way too. jj was...ah i refuse to touch on it again. hahah nostalgia ]]:

anyways, the main point is, OG14 is kinda, drifting apart. (the B._._._._-ing word is too much for me to say). ahahas. due to our all so different timetables, we rarely get the chance to meet up as a WHOLE, and yeh, even if we HAD the time, we would be with our classmates. and even if we saw each other in the hallways or corridors, we might not even greet each other. maybe a smile, yes, but then, no words. :O so yeh, pretty much sadded by it all. at least we r thinking of an IDP now, and planning about OG outings. hmm. hope it all works. this is very disappointing D:

the BBQ at xinmu's house was great fun! now tat i recall. and i'd better blog about this lest i forget. had been bout slightly more than 2 weeks since we met up during BBQ. hahas. didnt take much photos. ahaha and only 2 whole OG photos were taken. saddening! ohoh and i went later in the afternoon, so yeh lo. MISSED OUT PRECIOUS TIME! hoho. AGONISING. but all went well. and uhh, its just very different frm what i experienced in aj loh. hahas. maybe its the different processes of how we met bahs. OG14 was so united. xD amazing, and it really helped me a lot in coping and familiarising in JJC. hhaas, it also marked the start of a great frenship, and made adapting a HELL LOT easier. and yes, thank you for everything, camp, bbq, and all those times we met up: for CCA fest, for breaks, for the MUGGING session that ended up with us playing badminton in squash court, and all the bus trips home together :D thank you for everything. hahas so now, even though i know we wun be as close as we were once 4, at least we were close ONCE. and tats all tat really matters, cuz we will forever be great frens in my memories. :D love you all!

falallaa. i tink i'd better go rest soon. HMM. at least i blogged :D

Saturday, March 22, 2008

so. i m panicking bout my first history assignment in like, 2 yrs plus of my school life. imagine. secondary one and two history are like, TOTALLY IRRELEVANT to this COLLEGE history.





SAVE ME

Wednesday, March 05, 2008

i realized, that no matter how close i am to my new classmates and OGmates, i can never reach that kind of closeness as compared to my relationship with vytan and the rest. its weird. its as if they're..more than just besties,...but i don't know.... but rest assure no romantic feelings are involved.they say you can have all the friends you want. but there will be that one or few friends that you will always be close to and will have that special place in your heart. i finally understand.eww that sounds mushy and cheesy. but so true.


LIWANYU quoted this. i took it from her blog. and i actually cried reading it. STOOOPID LUH. always making me cry. LIWANYU U BIG BIG LOSER!!! >


BERRRRR!!!!! i misss SOO MUCH! WHY WHY WHY DID U FLY TO NANYANG WHEN U CAN JUST WALK TO JJ EVERY MORNING HUR??? WHY!!!! if not, we canbe in same combi, u can sit next to me, then u can continue saying BERRRRR and i can continue punching ur stomach le lah! and we can smack each other in the middle of class! and PISS teachers off! and the clique can ALL SAY TOGETHER. ok, maybe wanqing is in njc, but as long as she is happy xD. WHY LAH WHY WHY WHY!!!!!


gosh. luckily i have angkukueh and wangxue, sally and so many more ppl with me. txy i aven met up with for i dunno how long le. ]]: gosh i seriously miss her!! ><



*also quoted from wanyu* "i tink this photo is dedicated to vytan"

]]:

BFFs OKAY! cannot forget us in NYJC! and we wun forget u too! :]] remember our PACT. love you loads liwanyu! and angkukueh! and wangxua! wanqing! xiuying!


Tuesday, March 04, 2008

went out on sunday to celebrate huiwen's birthday. and we went to bugis. on a RAINY day. and we took a HELL lotta pics. and yeh..all with wanyu/wangxua/josephine. oh god. photo debt. LOL. ARUGH. guys if ur reading this, send me the pics quickly pls. ]]:

ohoh~! we were talking bout orientation, and we JJcians present and past were talking bout orientation.

wanyu: ivy did u cry?
ivy: yeh. ohmytian dunremind me.i cried like crazy. LOL.
yien: i also!
wanyu: ivy u should feel proud lehs!
ivy: ..uhh..?
wanyu: angkukueh cried because of u! she say she tink of u so far in AJ then she cry liao.

OMG. im like so TOUCHED BEYOND WORDS LEHS ><. thank u ar angkukueh! ]]: violent as u maybe, ur aggressive side has also a funny side! BEST FRENS! OUR FRENSHIP WILL LAST XD.


HOHO, who in the right state of mind will crash chinese de i ask u. ME. oh great lord. i dun even know why i did tat. oh yeh. because my lessons ended early, and then we had to go for OGlunch whic in the end turned out to be OG DInner since it was evening liao. so in order not to bore and rot to death by myself i went to attend chinese h1 with theresa and jaclyn. and i say, it isnt as boring as shit, HOHO. the teacher was quite cute i must say. she was so petite and kinda old, like an ah ma! OH GOSH~~


arugh. ok i going to sleep le. hahahaha. even maria said he/she need beauty sleep. so i shall go pack my things for tmr anyways. ]]:


new vocabulary word for the day.

KUKU.
actually i also have no exact idea watit means, or rather, i dunno how to explain it. and this word was used by miss JIAHUI. and yes, it cracks me up whenever she says it, either in MSN or in real life. HOHO. sooo cutee!! okok. enoguh crap for the day.

TENNIS~~ rawk my life! <33