Private Territory.

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Okay. Biology paper 2? Killed us all. I dare to say a whole lot of H2 bio ppl. Yesh, I'm freaking dermoralised.

So today at training, I hit all the tennis balls to vent my frustrations. And it was as if heavens agreed to me doing so, as today, we did serving. Then doubles. And jogging. And we fooled around then. Oh, and there was tennis IDP today from like, 4-5. Coach let us do serving. It was okay i guess, but I kept sticking to flat surfs, which is bad, since I feel that spin serves are WAYYY more attitude. And powerful. And unpredictable. I want to practise spin serves, but where and how?! RENUKA, WHEN CAN YOU GIVE ME TENNIS BALLS YOU PROMISED? ):

Hais. Then 174-ed home with lingling. saw some of the usual JJ sports ppl who takes 174. And the stupid bus still came late, packed and all. At one instant, this girl was asking us if we could press the bell for her. I was going to press it, when I lost balance (after letting go of the pole witht hat one hand i had; the other was holding my racket and broken shoe bag), falling backward on a woman with her kid. She pushed my butt when I fell backwards was like damn pissed lahs, even though I apologised to her. I mean -.- CHILL LAH. Lingling rolled her eyes. HAHA. Later on when she alighted, I realised that she had a seriously fat ass. Like wanyu said, evil people will always look horrible in some way, cause their hearts are.

Oh, and there was this Indian woman, sitting in front of us while me and ling were standing. She was covering her nose in an act-posh manner and giving us occasional stares. I mean, wth lahs. We know we stink from sweat, but you needn't show it til it's so obvious right. Crap, where are your manners? Still act til like that. I know your eyes damn big lahs, but need to look til like that meh? CHEEESE. Okay, maybe the combined smell of sweat from PC, then sunblock, then tennis sweat and deodorant is a tad overwhelming, but you don't see others showing such discomfort IN OUR FACES RIGHT. Kuey. Steam in boiling pot siah.

Anyways, that being totally beside the point, Im really dam scared i cant get promoted! Oh lord, after bio. And then that stupid chem paper 2 haven come out yet. ANd history. And GP. ): I WANT TO CRY. Nvm. Kinda tired after venting my frustrations at tennis; that really put my mind off studies for a while.

Hmm. A few things lingering in my mind. After these few days, I can really see how academics affect some, while others are really pretty much nonchalant about it. Gosh, I feel kinda bad about myself after some people around me voiced out their thoughts after comparing certain results. How I haven really been studying much, and all. Really, it made me realise luck doesnt carry me far, but I really dun think its an excuse for them getting worked up and all just because of this. (At me, probably; its so freaking obvious. I mean, I dun see others getting 'equal' treatment. But then again, I'd rather be in this alone. Dragging too many people in would be treacherous.) At the end of the day, I still gotta work harder for myself. I guess JC really teaches A LOT other than academia; it opened me up to a whole lot of social experience and all. Mhm, Im still learning along the way.

I didn't tell my mom about this, she'd probably chide me, and wouldn't even bother giving me advice, other than that look of disappointment. God. Please protect us ALL. Not make us into a 09S06. ): See? Everyone around us is wilting, dying under intense pressure. I dun understand their behaviour; it's absurd. Because you aren't the only ones having that high probability of being retained. AND only minor papers came out. I know, you all will score so much better than we do, so what's the point in losing out on some of these insignificant stuff? Does it disturb you all so much? Have a reality check, yo.

Oh well. I shall stop bothering myself with this. Shall got hit the novels or language books for a while to ease my thoughts. Seeing pw group tmr for OP. Jeez. I can't wait to get it done and over with. Disturbing. Disgusting. Gah.

P.S. Mac is incompatible with so many things. Should I just upgrade to Leopard? $200++..

P.P.S It's raining heavily. Oh, I certainly hope you didn't get caught in the rain!

P.P.S.S. C.A.M.P.F.I.R.E. S.O.N.G. Song! BWAHAHA.

A million things on my mind.

I'll probably NOT enjoy tomorrow at all.

Better bring a fully charged mp3, plus hp earphones. Just in case mp3 no batt.

Monday, September 29, 2008

Some random webcam sessions pre-promos. aMSN plus Skype. Awesome (:

I didnt flunk chem paper 1. Okay, I did rather badly though, really not my usual MCQ marks. I don't know if its the phone being lost and all issue, I most certainly don't want it to be my excuse for not doing well. I mean, hello, Ivy Tan, you didnt even mug much for chem, more rather just start studying for it at the end of the day. Good Game.

Math. Mr Subash didnt say much, but he pointed out where the A people are, and he kept narrowing down his target group, so I highly doubt that I got an A. Fly my kite, darn it. Mr Subash is such a Happy Sadist. ROFL. I think I said it too loudly to FQ and then he told us he heard me, and we cracked up. LOL. Hope I do well for my overall; I really want to do well in Math, more than anything. Oh wait; it's the ONLY thingi can do well in, in fact.

History's pretty much a goner i suppose. The most generous marker, Mdm Koh, is marking the most ridiculous question being set, the one on the berlin Blockade. What the shit lahs. Mr Hendri marking the other two questions most people attempted. WE ARE SO SCREWED.

I fell asleep in school today during civics and GP. LOL. I barely remember what I was writing. Hoho, awesome Ivy Tan.

We were waiting to go into GP class, but then this horrbile ah pei was teaching a bunch of j2 math. He was like scolding and scolding like there's not tomorrow at all the most ridiculous things, HELLO. Even Saggy Wong doesnt do that. Blehs, these kinda teachers disgust me.

Muneera: "Whoa, luckily our Math teacher is Mr Subash if not get him we sure die."

Ivy: "HHAHA."

Muneera: "Really! Ivy you math rep somemore."

Diana: "Aiyah! Tsk, don't waste your brain cells worrying about these kind of things."

Ivy: -cracks up- "You say it as if we have only a few brain cells; they are so precious we can't waste them!"

Diana: "No? I think that's really the case after promos. We have like.." -shows a 4 with her hand- "..FOUR brain cells left! One for each subject."

LOL. I feel like posting the class mass chats here. It's super funny. But then i pretty lazy and brain dead to filter out the funny parts. So oh well, shall keep it for next time then :D

Oh, yes! Huiwen Xuejie and I went to coach's training center, and we joined the training session with a bunch of kids. -.- Yes, we are like, mega-sized giants next to them. Oh god. I think the oldest amongst them was only sec 2? And there were these two girls, who are really sooo extremely cute!!! And this one guy called Ben who has a really mischievous face, and two other guys. Oh, the last guy i reckon is new, and he is really adorable! Like those shy shy types,. Initially he just looked at me. Then I smiled at him and he beamed back. HAHAHA. After that we got into the same team, and I kept making mistakes. He didnt groan and all like the other freaking weak guy who feels like vomiting after ten rounds? But just laughed heartily and kept saying "Oh no! I can't hit! I really can't hit!" and kept doubting himself. Damn jumpy lahs! Omg, kids. HAHA. ANd the little girl was so short she can't reach the ball. But it was really good efforts! And they were all so cute :D Okay, But nonetheless we still felt weird playing and TRAINING with a bunch of kids, knowing that they were of the same standard as us, if not better.

Oh, and did I mention? Coach's training center has weird toilets. I walked into the Gents two times. GOD. Thank God xua and huiwen pulled me out. I mean, who in the world paints the Gents PINK and the Ladies BLUE?! HAHAHAHA.

Hmm, and went out with Fangqi and Mellisa and Bernice after the chem paper. We went home to bathe then came out actually. HAHA. Went to eat SUBWAY. Oh my god their servings r like HUGE and JUMBO sized. GENEROUS PORTIONS OF SERVINGS ETC. Oh man, I ate til I was damn fulll :D Satisfied. HAHA. Then we went to far east to look for dresses. LOL. All of us tried on dresses, and I decided to try on an ankle long maxi dress for the fun of it. HAHAHA. Damn funny. We hopped from shop to shop in search for dresses. SO FUN. Then after fooling around enough we went home. Spastic i telll you <3>

P.S.Ivy, your face is FAt FAT FAT -.-

We went out again the next day. To look for dresses again and their tuition teacher's present, since she was leaving for Oxford to further her studies. Went to C.O.A.X. to try on trenchcoats/jacket dresses. LOL. Very funnn. But impractical. Mellisa then bought a small belt cause it looked pretty. Hahas.

At night, went out with family and we went to get my sim card replacement and a new hone at the same time. Dad signed up for a subline, with a whole lot of benefits. So now, we got two new phones at home. LOL. But uhm. Im still getting used to mine. Jeez, like I said, i dropped it ytd. HAHA. Stupidly careless. Oh well. But Im really grateful for my parents. (: <3>

School tomorrow! Im really excited again. Crap. HHAHAHA. I dun like GP lessons though! But But BUTTTT there is PC!! After like 3 weeks of not exercising? And AND AND TENNIS TRAINING! Oh dear, Im kinda scared everything I learnt slipped out of my mind. I mean, yeah. It's been rather long since I played? And I haven't been practising on my SERVE and NET. die ): Coach did say he might not be that friendly towards us anymore, since he want sus to train very seriously and all. ARUGH. Speaking of tennis, Im reminded of that new sunblock I bought. Gosh, I hope it works, I saw for myself how dark some chinese can get, to the point of looking like other races. ANYTHING but the fair types. No offence.

CHRISTMAS AND CHINESE NEW YEAR IS COMING IM SURE. (:

CULTURAL POT TOO. ((:

PROMOS RESULTS ARE COMING OUT ):

IVY'S NOT SURE IF SHE CAN GET PROMOTED.

-dies of disappointment in herself-

Shoo, leave me to emo now please, Thank you.

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Dad comes into my room to check out the new phone he bought me.

Dad: *examines the phone cautiously, holding it as if it was some priceless ornament* "Buy you this phone,must take good care of it okay! Promise me ar!"

Ivy: "Okay I promise." *beaming, feeling grateful and all*

I really meant it okay.

I really thank my parents for buying me this phone. But the next thing I know, when I was fiddling around with it to show dad how awesome the camera is, when suddenly, the damn thing just slipped out of my palm and went crashing down on the table. And bounced off onto my chair. And sprang from the cushioned seat to the metal shelf. And finally, went tumbling down onto the ground. Jeez. Dad and I just watched the scene in horror; I swear his eyes were huge and round as saucers.

Hoho. So much for TAKE GOOD CARE OF IT. My heart literally broke inside. Oh lord. I think im still recovering from shock now. And Wanyu's pissing herself off with biology. Typical. Humph. Oh wells.

School tomorrow! I'm psyched. Hahs.

ARUGHHHHHH

I think I shall tell the horrible story here about my lost phone cause i've been repeating that story like a gazillion times and each time i say it, guilt smacks me right in the face.

I was studying on the bus on the way to school to take my chemistry (last) paper. Slept at 4 the previous night (or that morning). Then this man i dunno, in his forties..? Boarded the bus, and sat down next to me. I didnt really bother, but continued to study my chem notes and listen to my mp3. Mellisa and Sze Hui were sitting in front of me. After alighting the bus, mellisa told me the guy kept buring out loud; I didn't realise a thing cause my mp3 was on kinda loud. Then when I started checking my bag and fumbling around for my phone, I couldn't find anything -.- And I panicked like crazy. Called mom on mel's phone, and she chided me a bit, so I cried. And when sitting with sally and xua, I teared a bit also. Then at home, Mom scolded me. I mean, expected lahs. But still, it's not as if I dun feel bad enough right. So much for a last day of promos.

Okay, now, I shall rant on and on about promos. OMG. Sucked. Im really wondering if i can even get promoted. Shitt. I mean, Im only confident of math? And I can assure myself i will make a hell lot of careless mistakes. SERIOUSLY. Then, there's those other two sciences, Biology and Chemistry. OMG. Screwed lahs. I shall not say much about chem, probably because there isn't much to say; it was just horrible. Biology was SAD. Paper one is gone for sure. Paprer 2 de essay gone, section A was a it doable for me? Though i crapped a whole lot, but you all know how biology is. 0.5m for a keypoint. And no matter HOW MUCH you study, you can never quite get all the points. ):

I DON'T KNOW IF I CAN EVEN GET PROMOTED.

So much for the H2s. H1s? I wrote I AGREE for an absolute NO answer, and history I spent more time on the topic I didn't study for rather than the one I did. Furthermore, HISTRY IS ALL BOUT ANALYSIS. The way Mdm Koh has been marking our scripts, it has all been about CONTENT.

I DON'T FEEL EXHILARATED THAT PROMOS ARE OVER.

This kinda feel like the Os, but somehow the sense of relieve isn't completely there.

Ivy Tan. You can go shoot yourself now. Save you from all the agonising pain of hearing this.

"Ivy Tan, retained."

Omg. I can just imagine the impact. SHIT. T.T Please save meee. ):

Now, I have no more mood to blog bout that awesome dress-trying time we had in orchard, HUGE subway feast. And that tennis session with the little kiddos who could play better than us at coach's training center. And me walking into the gents, and seeing a huge butterfly. And the gossiping session me huiwen and xuejie ahd in macs, and them telling me bout some cute angmoh guy sitting behind me. And the mass chat the class had last night. And today when wani and I were talking about horrible insects. ESPECIALLY BUTTERFLIES; the terrible encounters. And the evil plan the butterflies in the butterfly gardens were devising to take over the world!And and anddd so much more!

Im looking forward to school tomorrow, merely for the sake of seeing everyone. I don;t want the lessons. I don't want the results. I don't want to see the disappointment on teachers' faces when they see me, or when they tell us the results. Oh lord. And my parents! It will be such an impact. I don't even know how to start! I might just kill myself. LOL. AHEMS.

Reatained...? Omg. Wanyu tells me to chill, and that i can do it, but somehow, I lack the confidence. And surprisingly, xuejie doesn't even seem half as panicky as me. I really want to be fully promoted. God. Someone please SAVE ME.

Hais. Maybe if Im feeling a it better tonight i shall blog about the things I mentioned above. ):

Tennis starts tuesday. I have a sudden urge to stay back in school to practise with the wall. Else...I think coach will just get pissed off? Thank god for yesterday's training, though with kids. oh man, we were like, GIANTS.

Okay, on a lighter note, I think I might just go back to applying for my phone's warranty. Ah wells. I miss wanyu and gang. Meet up soon I hope.

Arugh. Promos. :/

Sunday, September 21, 2008

elvis greasy. greasy bear, all the grease on his hair.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

[22:13:31] |fangs| wildcats! joins conversation

[22:13:32] |fangs| wildcats! says:

http://fas.org/irp/world/japan/miti.htm

[22:13:42] |fangs| wildcats! says:

KINDA shows tt the miti is in 2.3

[22:13:46] |fangs| wildcats! says:

kind of

[22:13:52] |fangs| wildcats! says:

argh

[22:15:20] IVY says:

omg.

[22:15:21] |fangs| wildcats! joins conversation

[22:15:24] IVY says:

u mugger.

[22:15:30] IVY says:

still go online to search for research

[22:15:31] IVY says:

HAHAHA

[22:15:46] |fangs| wildcats! says:

LOL

[22:15:49] |fangs| wildcats! says:

thk u thk u

[22:15:56] |fangs| wildcats! says:

tt's my main purpose online actually

[22:16:03] |fangs| wildcats! says:

bt i end up chating-.-

[22:16:49] IVY says:

LOL.

[22:16:52] IVY says:

yeh me too.

[22:16:58] IVY says:

but then again,i comeonline almpst daily

[22:16:59] IVY says:

HAHAHAHA

[22:19:41] |fangs| wildcats! joins conversation

[22:19:46] |fangs| wildcats! says:

no need to say. the whole class noes

[22:19:47] |fangs| wildcats! says:

LOL

[22:19:50] |fangs| wildcats! says:

AHAHAHHAHHAHAHA

[22:20:12] IVY says:

LOL

[22:20:15] IVY says:

serious ar

[22:20:16] IVY says:

HAHAHAAHA

[22:20:43] IVY says:

omg. i must have portrayed myself as a major slacker who doesnt do my tutorials.

[22:20:48] IVY says:

shit. there goes my good girl image

[22:20:50] IVY says:

HAHAHA

[22:21:22] |fangs| wildcats! says:

eh no

[22:21:29] |fangs| wildcats! says:

we all noe u come online everyday

[22:21:39] |fangs| wildcats! says:

bt u mug IN FRONT of yur com

[22:21:41] |fangs| wildcats! says:

ROFL

[22:21:43] |fangs| wildcats! says:

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAA

[22:23:59] IVY says:

[22:23:59] |fangs| wildcats! joins conversation

[22:24:00] IVY says:

serious?

[22:24:02] IVY says:

pi lohs

[22:24:13] IVY says:

hahaha

[22:24:19] |fangs| wildcats! says:

calling me?

[22:24:20] |fangs| wildcats! says:

LOL

[22:24:20] IVY says:

misconceptions man.

[22:24:21] IVY says:

HAHAHAHA

[22:24:23] IVY says:

YES

[22:24:27] IVY says:

CALLING U

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Going back to JJ to study on Monday.

Tuesday and Wednesday currently no plans yet...but still. Oh wells. Ahahah.

Today was rather...fruitful for me? Digested DNA. more of it, at least. 6 hours at JE Lib. LOL. Maybe I'll be heading for west mall mac tomorrow evening alone.

Hmm. I shall consider, if im not too lazy to go out, that is.

Okay. Promos. Sorry, I felt the blog call for me.

HAHA. BACK TO HIATUS.

Monday, September 01, 2008

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