So today at training, I hit all the tennis balls to vent my frustrations. And it was as if heavens agreed to me doing so, as today, we did serving. Then doubles. And jogging. And we fooled around then. Oh, and there was tennis IDP today from like, 4-5. Coach let us do serving. It was okay i guess, but I kept sticking to flat surfs, which is bad, since I feel that spin serves are WAYYY more attitude. And powerful. And unpredictable. I want to practise spin serves, but where and how?! RENUKA, WHEN CAN YOU GIVE ME TENNIS BALLS YOU PROMISED? ):

Hais. Then 174-ed home with lingling. saw some of the usual JJ sports ppl who takes 174. And the stupid bus still came late, packed and all. At one instant, this girl was asking us if we could press the bell for her. I was going to press it, when I lost balance (after letting go of the pole witht hat one hand i had; the other was holding my racket and broken shoe bag), falling backward on a woman with her kid. She pushed my butt when I fell backwards was like damn pissed lahs, even though I apologised to her. I mean -.- CHILL LAH. Lingling rolled her eyes. HAHA. Later on when she alighted, I realised that she had a seriously fat ass. Like wanyu said, evil people will always look horrible in some way, cause their hearts are.

Oh, and there was this Indian woman, sitting in front of us while me and ling were standing. She was covering her nose in an act-posh manner and giving us occasional stares. I mean, wth lahs. We know we stink from sweat, but you needn't show it til it's so obvious right. Crap, where are your manners? Still act til like that. I know your eyes damn big lahs, but need to look til like that meh? CHEEESE. Okay, maybe the combined smell of sweat from PC, then sunblock, then tennis sweat and deodorant is a tad overwhelming, but you don't see others showing such discomfort IN OUR FACES RIGHT. Kuey. Steam in boiling pot siah.

Anyways, that being totally beside the point, Im really dam scared i cant get promoted! Oh lord, after bio. And then that stupid chem paper 2 haven come out yet. ANd history. And GP. ): I WANT TO CRY. Nvm. Kinda tired after venting my frustrations at tennis; that really put my mind off studies for a while.

Hmm. A few things lingering in my mind. After these few days, I can really see how academics affect some, while others are really pretty much nonchalant about it. Gosh, I feel kinda bad about myself after some people around me voiced out their thoughts after comparing certain results. How I haven really been studying much, and all. Really, it made me realise luck doesnt carry me far, but I really dun think its an excuse for them getting worked up and all just because of this. (At me, probably; its so freaking obvious. I mean, I dun see others getting 'equal' treatment. But then again, I'd rather be in this alone. Dragging too many people in would be treacherous.) At the end of the day, I still gotta work harder for myself. I guess JC really teaches A LOT other than academia; it opened me up to a whole lot of social experience and all. Mhm, Im still learning along the way. 

I didn't tell my mom about this, she'd probably chide me, and wouldn't even bother giving me advice, other than that look of disappointment. God. Please protect us ALL. Not make us into a 09S06. ): See? Everyone around us is wilting, dying under intense pressure. I dun understand their behaviour; it's absurd. Because you aren't the only ones having that high probability of being retained. AND only minor papers came out. I know, you all will score so much better than we do, so what's the point in losing out on some of these insignificant stuff? Does it disturb you all so much? Have a reality check, yo.

Oh well. I shall stop bothering myself with this. Shall got hit the novels or language books for a while to ease my thoughts. Seeing pw group tmr for OP. Jeez. I can't wait to get it done and over with. Disturbing. Disgusting. Gah. 

A million things on my mind. 

I'll probably NOT enjoy tomorrow at all.