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Monday, May 03, 2010
Its a terrible feeling really. I'm still waiting for my university admission letter here, while majority of my friends have already receievd theirs?
And the fact that I screwed up my interview really doesn't make me feel any better. Ugh.
I heard that ntu HSS has been sending letters already, yes again other than those I saw online.
So did bioengineering and some other science/engineering courses.
Depressing depressing.
Hadn't dared open my postbox, nor check the online joint admission thingy status.
Two days now. Or is it three?
Anyways. For the four days before this, I'd checked both sources consequetively.
No news either.
And the feeling of seemingly waiting for nothing to happen is too overwhelming a thought.
A friend told me, how insensitive others around her were towards this.
Like how they lament at her when she tells them she has yet to receive news, while close ones around her already have.
Another friend exhibits her sheer nonchalence and cold bitter attitude towards those who screwed up their interviews for thr desired course.
"If you want it so badly, you should already have prepared for it. Too bad if you flunked your only chance of proving yourself."
Others comfort you and say, it's still early, have faith.
I read on someone's blog. 'It's ridiculous to ask another to bear hope, when there isn't any hope to start with.'
Or something along those lines.
Yet having hope for a seemingly complete gone case.
It's what they call false hope, no?
You keep wishing for something to happen, knowing it won't, and eventually when truth beholds and reality hits, the dealt blow is often too much to handle.
So why?
Why put myself so high when all I know is to be let down again?
On a cheerier note, I bought myself three pendants from Citigems. So pretty! And extremely cheap.
and I received my pay for march/april (like finally)
Finished watching 4 seasons of the Golden Girls.
Rejected quite a lot of appointments due to my recent mood.
Went to EXPO for the Borders book fiar, bought nothing there except 6 exercise books on offer, a French set, and $4 worth of popcorn.
Met up with my choir girls.
Went for dinner with two of my colleagues. (Haven't seen them in ages.)
Haven't been able to concentrate on my retaking of As. As I said, that glimpse of false hope. Very distracting.
Been learning French.
Killed a moth. (I think I deserve a prize for this.)
And a lot more.
I'm running out of things to update about, so I shall leave it to the next post.
Au revoir.
And the fact that I screwed up my interview really doesn't make me feel any better. Ugh.
I heard that ntu HSS has been sending letters already, yes again other than those I saw online.
So did bioengineering and some other science/engineering courses.
Depressing depressing.
Hadn't dared open my postbox, nor check the online joint admission thingy status.
Two days now. Or is it three?
Anyways. For the four days before this, I'd checked both sources consequetively.
No news either.
And the feeling of seemingly waiting for nothing to happen is too overwhelming a thought.
A friend told me, how insensitive others around her were towards this.
Like how they lament at her when she tells them she has yet to receive news, while close ones around her already have.
Another friend exhibits her sheer nonchalence and cold bitter attitude towards those who screwed up their interviews for thr desired course.
"If you want it so badly, you should already have prepared for it. Too bad if you flunked your only chance of proving yourself."
Others comfort you and say, it's still early, have faith.
I read on someone's blog. 'It's ridiculous to ask another to bear hope, when there isn't any hope to start with.'
Or something along those lines.
Yet having hope for a seemingly complete gone case.
It's what they call false hope, no?
You keep wishing for something to happen, knowing it won't, and eventually when truth beholds and reality hits, the dealt blow is often too much to handle.
So why?
Why put myself so high when all I know is to be let down again?
On a cheerier note, I bought myself three pendants from Citigems. So pretty! And extremely cheap.
and I received my pay for march/april (like finally)
Finished watching 4 seasons of the Golden Girls.
Rejected quite a lot of appointments due to my recent mood.
Went to EXPO for the Borders book fiar, bought nothing there except 6 exercise books on offer, a French set, and $4 worth of popcorn.
Met up with my choir girls.
Went for dinner with two of my colleagues. (Haven't seen them in ages.)
Haven't been able to concentrate on my retaking of As. As I said, that glimpse of false hope. Very distracting.
Been learning French.
Killed a moth. (I think I deserve a prize for this.)
And a lot more.
I'm running out of things to update about, so I shall leave it to the next post.
Au revoir.