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Salut. The name is Ivy. She gets a year older every 18th November. Butterflies aren't really on her List of Nice Things. She loves her BFFs and TENNIS :D. Okay, and she doesn't know what else to say so she will stop here.
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
To hide behind giant shades.


I've been neglecting this space for a while now.
Didn't know what to type.
Everyday seems...repetitive; everyday the same.
I'd wake up, try to hit the books, do some chores, see parents at night, then head back to sleep.

A part of me wants to continue trying.
Another tells me I should give up hope; continue doing what I should have been doing since I dropped my job near two months ago.

I lie in bed at night, thinking where I would be, where I should be if only I had worked harder, started earlier.
I lie in bed at night, praying to a God I never believed much in when I was a kid, hoping that now I'd find my way with faith, build up my strength again, and find my will, my direction.

"Don't give up hope."
"Hold faith."
Oh? Even with it I don't know where I'm heading.

So, what do I do now?